In a different world

If I was made for music

As the title suggests, this is a post regarding some lyrics I came up with (rather on the spot) a while ago. A friend of mine was going to perform and I decided to freestyle. Never really got much feedback since everyone was in their own world but I thought "hell couldn't hurt if I uploaded  my musical rantings to my own website. The words I can upload pretty easily but the corresponding music may or may not be available since I don't own well any of it.
The first is from a segment I intend to do called "A Story in 5 minutes" 

"Looking for a thrill"
I try to cry but I can't seem to shed a tear
I wanna listen but it turns out I can't hear
I'd send a message if my writing was clear
I look around for you but you YOU just ain't here
I try to scream but I can't feel the fear
I want something new, would you call that weird
I mean excitement I need more than just cash
I play rough, get cut, hell even mashed
I'm stupid cause one fuck up and I crash
I'm also strong so yeah I'll have a blast
I'm living life but this shit feels like a task
I win,I have fun but its over and flash
I'm dangerous now and acting real brash
I'm crazy holding life like a stash
Last shot it's over and I'm seeing my past
Ha but at least I had fun and that's all that I ask
-Musical background Dollar and a Dream 3 J.Cole

For all those interested I'll add more in the future. Freestyling is fun and all but it's more than difficult haha. Feel free to comment or join the forums below and of course... Dream on!